Tanner Michael

I wait patiently for you every Summer.
Your beauty fills my backyard and my heart.
All who enter sense your presence with us.
I'm no longer afraid to speak of you, 
because you have stolen a piece of me forever.

My heart smiles as your sprouts come back every Spring
Grow taller, greener, buds emerging
You come back in places that you were never planted, 
but I don't mind
Your beauty reminds me that you are the child of my dreams now
not my biggest nightmare


I picture your face and can't wait til I meet you in the air one day.
Sandy brown hair with golden flecks of blonde, just like your sisters and brother
Strong baby-boy-man with the strength of your Daddy


Because of you, I get to tell daily HIS Story of complete love and grace towards me and your Daddy.  You are always part of me because you are part of God's Hand of grace extended to me.

I love you Tanner Michael
I honor your memory through the Black Eyed Susan
instead of trying to forget you ever existed
Mommy loves you
I'll see you soon

Magnificent God!

¹² But God made the earth by his power; 

   he founded the world by his wisdom 

   and stretched out the heavens by his understanding. 

¹³ When he thunders, the waters in the heavens roar;

he makes clouds rise from the ends of the earth. 

He sends lightning with the rain 

   and brings out the wind from his storehouses.

(Jeremiah 10:12-14)

As the thunderstorm woke me this morning, God reminded me of His Magnificence, His Greatness, His Power.  I continue to be in awe of the daily gall I have to try to be the "queen" of my own life.  Don't I know what's best for me?  Don't I know myself better than anyone else?  Uh, NO!!  Luke 12:7 plainly lets me know that "the very hairs of your head are all numbered."

I've heard it said that there is only One King, and He's not taking applications for His position, so as the thunder rumbles outside, the lightning lights up a greenish-yellow sky (are there any warnings out?), I am appreciating the Majesty of the One King who sits high upon One Throne.

Join me in being in crazy AWE of our Creator today.

Lord Jesus,  I admit that I try to take you off your throne at times and put myself there, as if I know what's best and right for me.  help me to know my rightful place before you, kneeled at your feet in adoration and trust.  You do know best, and You know me better than I know myself.  Thank you for loving me enough to create me, and to save me.  I love you Jesus. 

Amen

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, 

so are my ways higher than your ways 

and my thought than your thoughts."  (Isaiah 55:9)